for aak

"i was bad, but i do care :))"

sorry for not coming at your graduation party. i do appologize. thats terrible :( but i know we were passing our own way to go for an aim. success :))

CHOICE :: tak memilih bukan berarti tak ingin

Life is about choice. but not choose doesn't mean unwilling. its about priority. -aku-

penelpon : halo. dg lailatul iliyah? (mostly they call me wrong -_-)
me : LAILUL ILLIYAH, mbak.. *nada sabar membenarkan. maaf, ini siapa?
penelpon : kami dr mariBERAKSI memberitahukan bahwa mbak lailatul eh laywlaul eh panggilannya siapa ya? hhe (finally she give up)
me : lala, mbak -__-
penelpon : oke, Lala. kami dr mariBERAKSI memberitahukan bahwa kamu terpilih menjadi 30 besar calon Laskar Muda BERAKSI dari area Surabaya untuk menjalani proses interview sebagai seleksi tahap awal menjadi 10-15 Laskar Muda Terpilih. Selamat yaa.. Nah, interviewnya akan kami adakan sabtu tgl 25 juni besok, jam 5 di RM. Handayani Jl. Prapen 35. Gmn, Lala? bisa datang khan?
me : iya, akan saya usahakan *sok cool. padahal waktu itu rasanya "nano2" bgt
penelpon : tapi pasti dateng khan? *mbaknya gak terima
me : iya. pasti dateng. insyaAlloh
penelpon : nah, gt dong. oke, sampai ketemu disana yaa.
nuut nuut nuut.. *phone disconnected
me : *salto.kayang.roll depan-belakang. gak tau kenapa aku ngrasa seneng bgt kaya dapet panggilan kerja. hha


That conversation started the story. Setelah menjalani interview (yg sumpah absurd bgt aku jawabnya. alhamdulillah interviewer teamnya asik2 dan 94oeL parah. Nyantai (tapi serius) abis. its so so different with HNMUN interview, that made me feel like lost in the jungle) dan training selama 5 hari di Bandung.Yeah, im officially a part of laskar mudaBERAKSI Surabaya finally. BERAKSI (berbagi informasi dan aksi sehat Indonesia) is a youth movement platform for raising society health degree. Held by Darya Varia with brand Neozep Forte as a kind of corporate social responsibility (CSR) program. Why i've joined? yeah, feel i was facilitated to act directly as a part of people that try to raise society health degree. Serasa "omdo" sebagai siswa public health school yang kemana2 berorasi akan meningkatkan derajat kesehatan masyarakat tapi jarang sekali do act directly to society. Saya tdk ingin menjadi mahasiswa yg hanya "overdosis" teori, tapi aksi nyata utnuk mencapai goal itu. saya bukanlah seorang yg hebat dalam hal public health, yg sering melakukan aksi2 membawa perubahan dalam bidang public health. Tapi setidaknya, through this program, i try for .....

topi BERAKSI

Huaaa, i'll get superb vacation after UAS to Bandung. yeay. Thats my expectation for doing mariBERAKSI training in Bandung along 5 days (during 11-15 July). Apa namanya klo nggak vacation. Ke Bandung (known as Paris van Java) *terbayang shopaholic kayak di iklan departemen store. and FREE ACCOMMODATION *joget hula2.
Setelah melampaui 22hours (fyi, normally it can be passed about 16hours only by bus and AN HOUR by PLANE. thanks -_-), akhirnya sampe juga di Lembang (di kawasan vila istana bunga). Disana, kami ditraining oleh PMI tentang P3K, Disaster management, dan damage assessment&analysis. Di hari terakhir, kami juga simulasi what must we do ketika terjadi bencana. Seruu abiss. You know, we not only get the training there, but MORE ... 
new challenge..

the ID Card

personal kit

guidance literature

new experince..

bandrek and the gank xoxo

nasi campur Bdg

Executive ticket. hha. norak!

and new family..

mudaBERAKSI Bandung, Jogja, Surabaya

mudaBERAKSI Surabaya

nanana @kebun dpn gedung sate

@gedung sate

Setelah 13 jam perjalan pulang dg kreta EKSEKUTIF (pertama kali dalam hidup.hha) Turangga, sampe juga di Gubeng pukul 8am. Padahal tepat pada jam itu juga berlangsung Water Symposium di Hotel Novotel that i've paid for it. 50k, Meen. too expensive to be missed. hha. akhirnya, ngebut ke Novotel dan tiba disana pukul 9am. Dan ketika masuk di venue, wow thats so so crowded. but alhamdulillah, dapet tempat duduk agak depan (biar bisa liat France & USA native speaker. hha). We discuss about the importance of water (that the conclution is : drink water 2L per day!) :))

drink water bottle

ga nyesel deh. seminar package-nya lengkaap kap :D

the speakers an my dean

26-28 Juli 2011 adalah tanggal kita BERAKSI, dan kita menetapkan desa Pace-Jember menjadi 1st on Ground kita. Desa yang pernah mengalami KLB muntaber pada tahun 2010 lalu dan mengakibatkan beberapa warga menjadi korban (bahkan ada yg sampe meninggal) telah mengajarkan kami banyak hal. here for the story :))

sepanduk

the (baby) si(s)tter

FYI, dari setahun yg lalu wombopala sudah merencanakan pendakian ke semeru. Dan disepakati tgl 20 Juli akan berangkat. i do have a desire for it (terlepas dr warning ortu yg mungkin msh bisa dirayu). Rasanya keren bisa bercerita tentang kalimati, tanjakan cinta, arcopodo, edelweis, dan pastinya MAHAMERU, puncak abadi para dewa *tsaaaaah. Gak hanya mendengar dr cerita orang2 apalagi cerita kakak Donny dhirgantoro di 5cm yang persuasif parah. hhe... But whats to do? tgl 26 harus BERAKSI sedangkan prepare masih 1% (seriusaan). Kami msh dapet alternatif2 tempat untuk BERAKSI. Belum assessment dan survey langsung. bayangkan kurang seminggu acara! Aaand i've decided. Maybe this not the time for me to go. But someday :)) amiin. Iya, tidak memilih untk pergi ke semeru bukan berarti tak ingin :))

P.S :
diantara busy time itu, ada satu hiburan tersendiri dari teman (lebih tepatnya MANTAN teman FKM). Namanya Manda, but i prefer call her Mandyy Maduuu :D. inilah percakapan absurd di twitter yg telah disempurnakan ...
@NdiarN : asik deh abis ini ke Magnum caffe ya, Man :D
@mandaappa : kamu kali khan tgl 16 traktiran :D
@NdiarN : aduh, gajanji ya, Man..
aku : Water symphosium. Uhuk ƪ(˚▽˚)ʃ (@NdiarN ultah pas water symposium yg aku ceritakan diatas)
@mandaappa : water symphosium? siram"an ta? ikutaaaaan :D
aku : NGAKAK guling2 ditanah
@NdiarN : i guess you do the same. buahahahaha


aduuuh, masa water symposium dibilang siram2an -__- Mandyy mandyy. KAMU LUCU BEUD..
eh, iya. @NdiarN, Happy birthday. wishing you wonderful life ahead (aku udah ngucapin belum sih yar???) hha

Being your(better)self

aku selalu bertanya dalam hati (bahkan teman2 sekitar), apakah stereo voice-ku sungguh begitu annoying? sebagian ada yg menjawab "ngganggu parah, La'. mosok gak nyadar?", "nggak ganggu kok *dia sambil pake ear muff", dan sebagian lagi menjawab "enggak kok. itu yg membuatmu unique. just be your self" (-- mungkin dia sedang tdk ingin ribut denganku.

oke, (dengan dalih) Be Yourself.

dan kebetulan sekali, mingggu kemarin, kelasku mengadakan gathering di daerah Batu. and we've made a games yang intinya ntar sekelas bakalan nulis di kertas tentang diri kita. tentang segala rasa yg terpendam, dan asa yg tak terungkapkan. *tssaaaaaahh
and here we go, their voice of mine ...

my friend's voice about me :') damned thanks :)

ALL OFF THEM (oke exactly 99.9%) menulis bahwa suaraku memang badly annoying. sejenak aku berpikir defensive dg berkata :
"ah, gak juga kok. aku khan gak selalu tereak2. toh meskipun aku scream out loud, aku tetap unyu maksimal. dan kliatannya, semua juga nggak keberatan2 amat" dan juga
"ah, itu yg membuatku beda. just be yourself, Lala".
aaand cut!
kita berpindah ke sisi yang agak mature.
you are not teenage anymore. time for growing mature,
Lala. kalo misal kamu liat cwe' yg sukanya bentak2, ngomongnya keras, and so on, what do you feel? *ibu peri nanya.
mmmmm... biasa aja *jawabku. dan ibu peri pun bunuh diri.
dan aku sadar bahwa just be yourself doesn't mean that you have to keep doing something different from other people. but something better.

"being yourself doesn't mean being egoist and not hearing other opinion. if its make you better, why not?"aku

as "Peace. it does not mean to be in a place where there is no trouble, noise, or hard work. it means to be in the midst of those things and still be calm in your heart."
— Lady Gaga

PS : you guys just annoyingly break my balls, but i love you guys. IKM A 2009. oh iya, thanks buat yg ngasih stapler. pasti berguna bgt. eh, yg dapet kado jam meja kuning, itu dari aku. dari akuuuu. hha

the newest page

" i've made a tumblr, and you may visit "

http://helosyalala.tumblr.com/ 

i dont exactly know what this page really for, but i use as a part of my picturesquene :) enjoy

HNMUN or : is it a sign for?

tuesday, may 10th
oke, sent !! yea, i've sent some pages required by HNMUN's committee, cv and motivation essay at 10.00 am sharp. yes, motivation essay. i never write this kind of writing even in my dream. so, this is my first. i dont know how the motivation essay gonna be like? oke, just try.

see? my begining paragraph is so freaky-weird. hha. is it looks like write on diary??

it is freak. but an amazing thing usually need a brief of. (beneran aneh sumpah!)

wednesday, may 11th
messages received. subject : schedule for interview (may 5th, 04.56 p.m).
it said that i must be there on friday, may 13th at 06.45 p.m or less than. absolutely for interviewing me. what?? interview?? *pingsan. lebay deh :D

HNMUN interview schedule

friday, may 13th
im already arrive at 6.15 p.m on Unair Library (campus B) and Mr. keeper say : NO! you're not allowed for going to AMCOR !!! *horror backsound. mata saya pun mulai berkaca-kaca. berakting dan mulai merayu. " pak, pliiis. saya ada interview nih. bentaaaaarr aja ya pak". and im allowed :D i run as fast as possible (inspired by forest gump) and when im on the 3rd floor of library, dark. theres no light of lamps that turned on, except AMCOR. so im on my way to, till im in front of AMCOR and meet a man with sugar smile. really sweet sweet and sweet. (are you a kind of Logan Lerman? or even Anne hatheway?) and short conversation happened. really short and absurd.
Saya : am i late?
Mas Berkawat Gigi : who are you? (sambil senyuum. maniiiiss banget) :') hha. bukti bahwa saya sungguh bukan artis
S : applicant
MBG : ask to him. a boy wearing brown shirt
end.
im entering the room. i think its not a kind of interview session. theres a tart cake, 17 candle formed, camera, and people around. yea, its AMCOR's birthday. interview postponed. and party begin.

saturday, May 14th
IM SO NERVOUS. somebody calm me down pleaseeeeee. blank. i forget all that i remembered. i lost all that i've prepared. ya Alloh lebay bet deh aku yak. kenapa bisa se nervous ini. jawab ngasal se ngasal2 nya. but i knew what i've said. no shit. and i've tried to give my best. :D aku jadi nyadar, ternyata english fluency ku masih belepotan. need more treatments :D
AND, i forgot all that i answered except a brief part of the question : Whats ur motivation? " everybody can be a nation ambassador on their way. so do i. maybe this is my way. who knows? i just try" i answered.
i knew it seems like just a dream. or maybe my daydreams. i dont care. i just try..

"cause dreams are not foolish"

even John Lenon said
you, you may say im a dreamer
but im not the only one


PS: thanks to @ndiarn and @fee522 for supporting me a lot :D
to @ndiarn: you said that its a sign? yea, u're right. a sign for me to learn more. hha

untitle

my heart is undescribeable. just like a willing for screaming, crying and smiling at the same time

Hi Kartini !!

source:google (forget the exactly.sorry)

Kartini KW I :D

my aunty

Kartini KW II&III :D

bukan seberapa banyak jenis pekerjaan pria yang juga bisa dilakukan oleh wanita,
tapi aktualisasi diri tanpa mengabaikan tupoksi :)

Selamat Hari Kartini,
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