hari ini

mungkin hanya sampai hari ini, bukan esok atau selamanya.
mungkin diluar sana ada jodoh yang lebih baik menanti kita.
aku juga tak begitu tau, biarlah.
yang jelas sampai hari ini,
selain berdoa untuk kedua orang tua, keluarga, dan diriku sendiri,
pelan aku menyebut namamu, menyelipkannya diantara keinginan-keinginan masa depan.
jangan berekspektasi, ujarmu. tapi tak apa, aku berekspektasi kepada Tuhan. tidak terijabahi pun, aku yakin Dia akan menggantinya dengan yang lebih baik.
iya, layaknya wanita pada umumnya, aku begitu yakin bahwa akan hidup bersamamu kelak. padahal tak sekalipun kita membicarakannya. entahlah, aku terlalu tereksplotasi cerita picisan dan lagu romantis, mungkin.

aku mencintaimu.

aku ingin, akulah wanita yang paling kamu sayangi setelah ibumu,
aku selalu ingin tau kabarmu dimanapun kamu berada, sedang apakah, bersama siapakah.
aku ingin sealu ada morning - night greetings,
ditelpon, dinyanyiin pake gitar, surprise candle light dinner, banyak foto berdua,

ah, banyak mau. kelak pasti aku akan sangat merepotkanmu.
oleh karenanya, aku memutuskan untuk mencintaimu, sampai hari ini saja.

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terimakasih untuk kemarin, kemarinnya lagi, dan kemarin-kemarin sejak pertama kita bertemu.

plaid shirt man

That day, I just got back from my campus to have lunch with friend in nearest mall.
That was the last day of final exams breaking brain, so self reward needed.
makan enak, nomnom :3
When i stepped out of park area, my friend stopped me.
she told that, we're waiting another friend.
okay. im in, till she's smiling to a man, stepped ahead toward us.

He wore plaid shirt, jeans, and sneaker. with backpack.
about 160+cm and a lil bit thinner than its proportional.
bright skin, dan model rambut yang biasa aja.
then we just step out from park area to that mall for craving meals sooner, we're just starving.

I've just sit in front of. while listening to his talks, secretly stared at him. he had wide eyes.
strong eyebrow, and i love that :D.
a lil bit fat in cheek and shadows on chin.
ohya i love his laugh anyway. its fascinating.

I knew nothing about him, since that's the first time we met.
he just told my friend what happened to his love story, and i heard.
He's recent broken hearted. i uhm, actually didn't know the details of story and maybe i should not care about that. all that i knew that he's a fun friend.
oh Lord, he's kind a goodboy and maybe a lil bit hurted. i hope i would meet him again someday, where he had found somebody who loves him with every terms and condition wishing well.  

and thankyou Lord for answering my old wish, anyway :)